It sucks you in only to spit you back out.. That's life, that's worth and that's most definitely strength. I realised now without this suffering happiness wouldn't taste so sweet. Neon lights aid to the dance, but the darkness develops the character.
I think I've seen it all my life, ain't a damn thing changed everybody dipping into the same bowl; not enough to go around. But at this time in my life, it don't mean a thing. Even if I get a nibble I fail short for that.. at least. I got these dreams and I see them when I close my eyes, even if they don't manifest to reality they've spread throughout my heart. It's kinda ridiculous but this change has finally hit me, walking outside for the first time in a couple days to go to the shops.. This calm, I couldn't explain but it was cool because my girl understood.. this calm set in.. this peace with the world. Everything else was just irrelevant noise. It was a familiar calm and it was fucking brilliant. I'm not free but now I'm a spirit and I have a destiny to fulfill. And there ain't a motherfucker out there that will do it better than me.. believe that.
I'm not concerned about tomorrow anymore, if I wake up I wake up, if I don't my memory seeps in everything in life. I'm worried about today, what I reflect now will translate into tomorrow and the rest of my life, therefore I will have to make it something worthwhile. I have to be something worth remembering, I must make an impact on every person that enters my life, from what I have to offer that is the least I can do.. First step, finish school.
Missing You Becks.. I Live In Your Spirit & Memory, And I Will Get By..x
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